Alexia Umansky is reflecting on one of the darkest moments in her life.

During the Oct. 8 episode of Fox’s Special Forces: World’s Toughest Test, the daughter of Kyle Richards and Mauricio Umansky spoke about a harrowing past experience for the first time publicly. 

“Seven years ago I was on a trip with some friends and I was with people I trust,” an emotional Alexia told directing staff members Rodolfo “Rudy” Reyes and Jason “Foxy” Fox during a day three check-in, “and I was put to bed because I had a little too much to drink. And I woke up and I could tell something had happened.”

The 30-year-old continued, “I didn’t even have the power to consciousness to say ‘no.’ I felt completely objectified and I had a lot of pain and anger for that. At the one year mark, I decided that happiness is a choice and I was going to choose to put it away, but it still hurts.”

Rudy empathized with the Real Housewives of Beverly Hills star’s pain, but encouraged her to “find a way to use it in a positive way” and continue on in the grueling competition.